candlesI am a mother
five times over.
five times? you say, looking around my house
obviously populated by three
three kids smiling from pictures on the walls–
three kids’ artwork proudly displayed–
three kids’ worth of beds and clothes and Legos and dollies and schoolbooks.

Yes, Five.

Five hearts have beaten under my own–
Five times little fingers and toes and formed
in the miracle of love and life.

But only three times have I held those tiny people in my arms.

Twice death has stolen those heartbeats away.
Twice I have been emptied from within.
Twice I have mourned a child never known apart from a heartbeat, a small flutter.

But death has no sting, for
It is swallowed up in victory–
I believe in hope and I believe in heaven and I believe that

In eternity I will be surrounded by


6 thoughts on “Five

  1. Pingback: Wednesday Reblog | Leigh Michaels

  2. I know this is an older post but I was snooping after reading that last one. In July we lost a baby. There are two friends due within a day of that had been due date and they post regularly. It really hit me hard last week but I do have four children and I WILL one day hold that little one. I also will also on that due day choose to rejoice and continue to trust in God’s plan then and for the future.

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